09.21.09
novelties - gallbladders
earson: pandora, weepies / placebo / portishead radio
eyeson: arpee, paperwork, dark winding roads and silhouettes in grey
thoughton: you - and the promise i made to myself.
been too long, but sometimes i have a lot to say (finally) but am hesitant to say it.
person i've been close with on the phone had a lot of abdominal pain at the beginning of last week, 1st visit to the hospital diagnosed a bowel obstruction that should've resolved .. more abdominal pain over the weekend was an infected gallbladder that is coming out as we speak. i feel fretful, and miss the sound of his voice, which is reassuring and big and not quite basso and flavored with texas where he grew up.
now; said person carries on with an alternative lifestyle online. and there are said other people involved with this alternative lifestyle whom - he is close to - and whom i am trying to relate to a little better - but am feeling .. underwhelmed about. there is that huge question that you have to ask yourself, eventually; what will you accept and embrace about an individual, and what simply crosses the line? to that end: even if you do, would they do the same for you?
i'm fretting about him right now. i've driven the nurses, receptionists on the floor where he's an inpatient nuts, i'm sure.
our living room is covered in the wreckage of my grandfather's house that my mom's brought home .. photo albums and jewlery boxes, pictures in frames, my great-grandmother's knitting .. 3 watches that don't work, just as many flashlights .. a crumpled up tin measuring cup that 'still measures,' about a billion new dishtowels that we're never going to use, tarnished silver serving items ..
was my first 12hr at work today.
margaret cho live on friday, woot.
written at 8:56 p.m.
