08.04.08
planet BarbieDies
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listening to:.: the radio, independent adult alt rock that i used to think was eww-tastic - sad
reading:.: the usual
watching:.: dark knight this weekend, not mind blowing like the critics all said, but OK i suppose
neice's birthday is today, her present from me is to get onto my cell phone plan with me. she's gotten a job at a local restaurant and she'll be going to school this fall .. i can't help but think that sometimes you can have the fondest relationship with someone .. but the MOMENT you move in with them it feels like you're seeing them too much.
my sister came to a family get-together yesterday. i didn't even greet her or look her in the eye. i know this was cruel, but after all of the unbelievable things she's done since i got home i'm surprised she had the balls to even show UP at the house. she seemed sad at the dinnertable, but i DO recall her saying as she was kicking me out of her house that she thought our family was dysfunctional and nuts and she wished she could get away from us. well, here's your chance, my sibling .. get the hell out of Dodge. don't let the door hit you.
wrote a bit more on the new ice age story and couldn't sleep thinking about the plotline last night. i think i have it worked out .. it's a very sensational, predictable sort of thing so far so i'm looking for a twist. maybe this time the martyr of the revolution could actually -live.-
i think really the only roadblocks i have mentally are managable. is a global warming and a global cooling REALLY going to happen in a matter of 20 years or less? if the upper eschelon of society still operate cars, do we -plow- the streets? or is the new hummer actually a SnowCat. i know what the drives of society have become, but in this new feudal/drug riddled existance, what motive does the upper crust have to supress social adaptation and development?
i love these questions!
with my next paycheck i have to pay my car payment, my phone payment and my DSL bill, get my hair cut/colored, get my oil changed, and get my niece on my plan. i also may have to use it to get zoe ready for school. speaking of zoe ..
i feel increasingly distant from my child. i think it's because some physical things are keeping me up all night long and by the time i get to sleep it's like 5AM .. that means i'm sleeping through the morning and working at night, and i never see her. .. maybe i should .. have a re-connection project this week during my off days and kinda put myself in her way. *ponder.* i'll make some plans to hang out with her, i feel so awkward 'pretending' with her which is SO strange, because i spent almost all of my childhood on a different mental planet. she's changed so much since we got back from CA for the worse, behavior-wise .. it's probably from lack of my best attention AND her diet, which is spotty at best.
written at 8:21 p.m.
