07.27.08
informer!
earson:
eyeson:
thoughton:
i was just rereading some of my old entries .. there is a heck of a lot about a guy named 'ben' back there in '04 that i can hardly remember. directly after him, or intersecting with him, was kia .. i'm surprised at how difficult my life seemed at that point .. basketball punks smashing in my car window, losing my apartment, learning to love Z and trying to deal with being both a young mom and a young person at the same time. yet! throughout, i'm describing running every night and clear skin! so all this time i've been thinking about adding daily exercise to my regimen and what i've read just re-inforces .. it's better for me all around, anxiety-wise and skin-wise, to get some workout in every day.
drama continues on the niece front: she called my mother and my sister yesterday and told them she's ready to come stay at my mom's house. my sister decided to ambush her at the house as soon as she gets there and have a 'chat' with her explaining she needs to be an adult and NOT fall back on her grandmother's house. she's SEVENTEEN YEARS OLD? so not unsurprisingly my niece simply walked out again. heh. my sister blames me for the drama as in the beginning, if i'd dropped meg off at home instead of at a friend's house, it might not have escalated .. i don't believe that. i think it was getting worse already.
i LOVE being a secretary and i don't know why i gave this up. any job where i get to do paperwork, talk on AIM and be everybody's friend again is totally fine with me. my schedule starting in the fall appears to be a mix of days, swings, and evenings which will work with my child's schedule a bit better than all evenings .. she's getting bigger now and the shift from working nights (which she slept through) to evenings (which she's pretty much awake for) has been kind of big for her, has had a bigger impact than i intended.
I'VE GOT TO LOOK FOR A ROLLEY BACKPACK! :O!
so somehow i overdrafted my checking over $200, so i have like a dollar to my name until thursday. i feel so bad for the bank teller. i gave her my last puny paycheck and wrote on the back for $100 back, expecting nothing .. she TOTALLY GAVE IT TO ME. heh, even though i started out over $500 overdrawn. i could hear her as i was driving away on the intercom but i completely ignored her. too bad, i had the cash in my hand and i needed it for groceries and gas. sorry bank girl. i hope you didn't get into trouble.
things emily needs to do:
- guitar lessons
- exercise x1/day
- maintain clean living space, perhaps a semi-portable vacuum? because mom's is a behemoth not worthy of spending 10mins to put together to put up with a burnt wire stink?
- get a copy of z's birth certificate so that i can get a copy of her social security card so that we can get housing help
- find a childcare she enjoys
- find clothes i enjoy wearing
- pay my bills on time & save for the future!
i'm caffinated .. you need to listen to this!! ..
p.s. - just got a call from the house, meagan went to her mother's, got as much crap as she could fit into a bag, and went to our house via her bike. so she's found and nested at least for the night, yay.
written at 9:09 p.m.
