05.21.09
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earson:
eyeson:
thoughton:
in the middle of the night is when i feel the enormity of it all the most.
there's a pine branch outside my window that creaks throughout the night.
my lower back is so painful right now i feel as though i'll just revert .. to being bed confined .. but it's all in my head, all of it is in my head, and if i confess to the pain the worth of it is nil.
so i'll NOT confess but continue to excuse it like a sad, manic child in a grocery store screaming - it was only the ENVIRONMENT - the SITUATION - the CIRCUMSTANCES?
written at 2:00 a.m.
