05.21.08
rebirth over the radio
earson: queen, the beatles, the moonglows, the beach boys
eyeson: the movie alive, adult swim, cnn.com, dreamnotoftoday.com ..
thoughton: SO LIGHT
so while i was finishing watching my 2 little old men on saturday night/sunday morning there was a beautiful sunrise outside of the room's windows. i had plenty of time to waste, so i sat there (between notations and keep-safe measures) while it turned from cool to warm, while the landscape below it went from shadows to shades of green .. and i noticed the radiotowers.
now .. i notice radiotowers wherever i go, and not just because a friend of mine used to call his blog that. i notice them because my father used to be a radio man back in the days when you plugged in the 8 track or spun the record and the man didn't choose your playlist for you .. i noticed the radiotowers when i flew out of town and felt my heart sinking into my shoes, when my 6th sense was resolved but really, knew it wasn't doing the right thing .. i saw the radiotowers thrust out of the dark when i flew back -into- town - beaming inwardly, totally exhausted and at a loss all at once .. and sunday morning i saw the radiotowers blinking and felt so good, just so good. it's weird how those things can affect you, but radiotowers speak to me.
i felt delighted and even more certain that i'd made the right choice not staying in CA. i felt all the more determined never to move away again. i've begun to feel purified, bled out, reborn. creative again, inspired by things, lingering on things, taking the time ..
while i watched the sunrise and the radiotowers i thought about what i would write here, i wished i had some paper, i felt tired and dizzily happy. i thought about poetry, about books i'd like to read ..
written at 2:14 a.m.
